Topic: what would silence say if it could speak to you
I have always been…. before ‘God spoke’ or space began to fill. I am absolute. I live between the atoms and the sound waves. I am larger than anything that has ever been or ever will be. Contained within me is not something- but nothing. I am. No words, no images, no meanings and no pressures. I just am.
Stop trying to use me beyond what I am. Let me be. Let us be. Remove the projected requirements of what I am supposed to do. Time does not matter. Matter does not matter. I am here- if you dare find me.
Question: Why do we need you to be something?
Answer: That is not for me to answer.
Question: Why are you scary?
Answer: That is not me. Something has been pretending to be me.
Question: Why are you sacred?
Answer: That is not me. Something about you is being projected onto me. Do not seek me with need. Do not seek me with senses. Stop trying. I’m already there.
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It is not uncommon for a client to be asked to journal as a way to further process what is emerging in and out of session. For many years, I believed that this method of exploration was personally unnecessary because of how much time I spent reflecting in my head. I’ve learned all too well that this is not nearly as effective as putting pen to paper. Reading the words changes the experience. We have a chance to pour out our hearts and then later reflect on what was written from a more objective place (a key component of mindfulness and the ability to act from a centered place). All kinds of juicy information can also emerge, like patterns in our thinking, information gaps/assumptions, and unnoticed places our own wisdom speaks. In this case, it served as a vehicle for rich conversations.
I recently joined a writing group and we were asked to delve into our relationship with silence. While my first entries were familiar responses, there was a point when I tapped into a voice I didn’t know was within me. I shared what I wrote with other participants and the unanimous response was that I needed to provide a platform where it could be heard by more people. That is the reason for the above entry. I have no explanation. I don’t even know if it is grammatically correct. That is the beauty of a journal entry. However, if you find this to be thought provoking, feel welcome to consider what this brings up for you and how this might enable greater self-understanding or insight.